Sad.

I tried to get some sleep last night. I think I nodded off at about 4am.

The phone rang at about 5 something. Its not a good thing when your phone rings that early in the morning. Not at all.

I already knew what the phonecall was going to be about. I already knew who it was going to be. But I raced to the phone anyway.

Kua mate taku nana.

The shock took most of the feeling from my body, I was numb. I know I heard right, but I remember thinking, did I hear that right? Im sure you just said she didnt make it.

It took a couple hours to sink in. I was at the microwave watching my coffee spin around inside the box, and and warm tears streamed down my face. The floodgates had opened. I had finally realised, she had gone.

So unsatisfying. So final. So unfair.